I'm back at work now. Not working though, as you can see. My heart aches when I think of the abrupt change from greenery to gray cube. I have a few bug bites and a few pounds left to remind me I was in a different world just a few short days ago.
I've been a real jerk today -- don't want to be back, don't want to do the mundane. The things we did, wrote about, and discussed last week seemed so much more real than the stuff I'm doing today. The good news? I only gained three pounds, and I was psychologically prepared for five . . . yippee.
It is hard to get back to 'reality', I must say. My body feels too raw to even drive the car; everything too bright or something. To make matters worse, somehow I scheduled both a mammogram AND my annual GYN exam today. I was just thanking God that I was still in SOMEWHAT of a good place.
The good news: I am keeping everyone's face in my mind as well as the beautiful view of the foothills that I saw each day while I wrote, that quiet dining room fringed by the green leaves and Phyllis's inspiring and loving blue eyes. Other good news: I did actually journal in a 'real', suede journal that a friend gave me, that I was 'saving' for who knows what. I'm through throwing away my Costco yellow-pad journals from now on. It somewhat seems more fitting and more permanent.
I miss you all so much. This re-entry period is definitely a bit of a challenge. Take good care. Love, Diane xo
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I've been a real jerk today -- don't want to be back, don't want to do the mundane. The things we did, wrote about, and discussed last week seemed so much more real than the stuff I'm doing today. The good news? I only gained three pounds, and I was psychologically prepared for five . . . yippee.
Sigh...
It is hard to get back to 'reality', I must say. My body feels too raw to even drive the car; everything too bright or something. To make matters worse, somehow I scheduled both a mammogram AND my annual GYN exam today. I was just thanking God that I was still in SOMEWHAT of a good place.
The good news: I am keeping everyone's face in my mind as well as the beautiful view of the foothills that I saw each day while I wrote, that quiet dining room fringed by the green leaves and Phyllis's inspiring and loving blue eyes. Other good news: I did actually journal in a 'real', suede journal that a friend gave me, that I was 'saving' for who knows what. I'm through throwing away my Costco yellow-pad journals from now on. It somewhat seems more fitting and more permanent.
I miss you all so much. This re-entry period is definitely a bit of a challenge. Take good care.
Love, Diane xo
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